So I had a feeling today, that I was doing very well. Conceptually in my mind I had felt that I had unlocked the secrets of the universe and I know this still to be true. Then a sense of let me go down into achievement. So I’m in achievement but I am from a position of pure essence, meaning that I am not being defined by any action or mental activity to define my sense of achievement. Secondly I am just resting in the sense of achievement in my solar plexus chakra. So I go on and on, and I feel that my fear of what happens if I am so spiritual, does that mean that I won’t achieve my goals. Does that mean that their is a separation of god from achievement.
So then I meditated on the solar plexus chakra and read some scripture relating to achievement and I become fully absorbed in the notion of doing, of achieving, without actually doing the physical or mental thing as I felt that in the long run by being defined by a certain egoic pattern or object, would not be truthful in terms of where the energy is coming from. So I continued to do that for about an hour a a half, with scripture in my ear and then I fell asleep.
I woke up about an hour later, and I felt OK, but with the sense that what I thought would happen did happen. And that was that yes achievement is important but when we mix it with too much ego, we are left with a choice. When we see the futility of what competition really is, we have to choices. Do we fall into evil and become completely consumed with competition and ego, in the process of becoming completely consumed with ourselves, or do we recognize it for what it is. That it is just and activity and a worthy goal of achievement and to receive healthy validation, and to be rewarded for this sense of importance.
So naturally, I decided OK, I am still happy with my original concept, which now allows me to enter into some spiritual or rather plainly meditation, as I have said I have now satiated my sense that I want to be important.
So now I have transcended the ego once again and I am remaining in a sense of consciousness which for me is the greatest act we can achieve, however I still keep my faith and trust Firstly on jesus christ and secondly if I need to use my ego and create a sense of achievement to fill my insecurity I can do that. Now I am well within my own personal boundaries to allow that to go, and to retain my consciousness.
This is a good meditation.
Amen
Thanks be to God
I love you…xoxo
Christian Hippy Monk 